This is probably my favorite song. Its meaning translated to me towards a breakup to start. It has evolved since I started reading A Course in Miracles. It’s become the battle with my Ego mind over my inner guide. It’s become my anthem. My choice over who is going to win. It is my choice. I have learned my ego isn’t my friend. It has guided me in the wrong direction and creating a very unhappy world. I’m so very…
I’ve blogged on this issue before but I wanted to revisit it again. I HAVE BLADDER ISSUES. I can have both hesitancy and incontinence. However my incontinence is more that I get the feeling I have to go to the bathroom and have a very short amount of time to get there. What happens, and this I’ll never understand, is as I get closer to the bathroom that’s when my bladder starts to release, thus the accident. I wanted to…
I don’t know if I can go so far as to say I am thankful for my MS, but I know I could say I’m thankful for the good days. I know I could say I’m thankful that I don’t have the symptoms of the pain. I give a lot of credit to those out there that suffer from chronic pain. That is the one symptom I really don’t know if I can deal with 24/7. So for all my…
Thanksgiving. Today is a wonderful day to give thanks for the amazing things you have in your life. Big or small there is something that keeps you motivated and moving everyday. My blog is mostly about multiple sclerosis but there is so much more to my life than my disease and I have so many things that I’m so thankful for. I am so grateful for meeting my ex-husband. For marrying him because through him I received my daughter and…
Star Wars, The a Empire Strikes Back. My favorite of the original trilogy movies. Why? It’s the struggle the dark side the bleak unknown of the outcome. It has hope though as Luke and Leia watch Lando Calrissiam fly away in the Millennium Falcon in search of Han Solo. When it came out in what 1980 never thought that certain lines would play in my head when relative to having multiple sclerosis. This line Yoda says does. It’s because I…
November 22 the Scorpio/Sagittarius cusp: The astrological symbol of Scorpio is the Scorpion. The astrological symbol of Sagittarius is the Archer. Scorpio/Sagittarius are very determined, and once they’ve made up their minds, they are unlikely to change them. Expressing the fixed quality of Scorpio, they tend to be stubborn, refusing to give up when others have long since become bored and abandoned a project, and they get things done when no one else thought it possible. Even though Scorpio/Sagittarius are…
It’s my birthday tomorrow. For some reason I woke up a little sad today. I think I actually became sad yesterday. I’m always sad at the middle year marks 25, 35 and now 45. I took turning 30 and 40 fine. It seems I’m alone in the 5’s. My divorce started right when I was turning 35. It was such a monumental change in my life. I was still in my house. I still have five cats running around. Boomer…
First let me start off by saying this is at my stage of the disease and my stage of the progression. It is not everybody’s MS path nor is it where you will surely be if your newly diagnosed. Everybody’s multiple sclerosis is different. On Valentine’s Day weekend in 2017 it will be 19 years I’ve had MS. It’s been a long time. I could be 1000 times worse and even though I struggle every single day, understand that I…
Well now I’ve been trying to train Boomer to go to the bathroom. Boomer is the big one first picture. He’ll pee out here but he hasn’t pooped out here yet. Unfortunately he is over 10 years old and he’s used to being walked so it’s going to take some time. But I’m patient. I got cookies in my pocket and eventually will get there. But today I’m just hanging out hoping for the miracle. I did this for the future…
U2HEARTS This was my license plate for more then 15 years. It was from U2-Two Hearts on the War album, my favorite U2 album. It is my email address as well. I recently turned in my plates and became incognito driving around town. I gave my old car to my daughter and leased a new car. A black car. I haven’t owned a black car since I was 17 years old and totaled my black car the day after I…
