For the first time at probably two months I answered someone on match.com. I’m still under the same feeling that I don’t want to date, so I don’t really know why I reply, but her did. The conversation went back-and-forth for a bit and then I asked the question; did you actually read my profile, are you aware that I have a mess and I use a walker? Silence!!! I can’t say that I didn’t purposely say that for a…
At a nice dinner last night with my parents we briefly talked about my past relationships and any future relationships. I said something that finally was the truth about how I feel. I don’t want to date because I DON’T TRUST MYSELF YET and I don’t know if I ever will. I just know I NEVER WANT TO BE THAT GIRL I WAS AGAIN. Don’t they say abstinence is the best prevention. I made bad choices for myself. My ex-husband…
My life coach says I’m in a growth stage and not wanting to date is perfectly ok. I must admit, originally I thought I’d take a few weeks, a month off, then Boomer, my beloved English Bulldog died. In that grieving time, besides bonding and training a new puppy, I also got to a very good place in A Course in Miracles. I just felt good being alone. It wasn’t a matter of the multiple sclerosis, although that will always…
According to the National Multiple Sclerosis Society: Sexual problems are often experienced by people with MS, but they are very common in the general population as well. Sexual arousal begins in the central nervous system, as the brain sends messages to the sexual organs along nerves running through the spinal cord. If MS damages these nerve pathways, sexual response — including arousal and orgasm — can be directly affected. Sexual problems also stem from MS symptoms such as fatigue or…
I never commented on this picture yesterday. I found this on a U2’s website written in Bono’s handwriting but signed by Bono, Edge, Adam and Larry. I don’t know if it’s going to be a new song or if it was just something they were doodling but it was so fitting and they’re my favorite. Yesterday I wrote to my coach before I spoke to her and asked her to read my blog. I received an email that simply said…
The following are conversations I had with my life coach about ending things and the actions with the guy I was dating, the one with the 9 hour first date. The beginning part was in our session when I realized I didn’t want me to continue dating him, I wasn’t feeling the connection. She coached me to follow my inner guide, listen to my gut feeling and stay on my course of coming from a place of love. My struggle…
I always wondered what is going on in boomers mind when he looks outside. Boomer doesn’t get up and go outside easily you have to convince him so what is he thinking when he gazes? I’ve noticed lately I too have been glancing out my big window but I know what’s going on inside my mind. My life has become my apartment. The four walls of my home. As my MS has become worse I tend to stay home more…
He comes to the door with this humongous bouquet of flowers. I’ve gotten roses before probably picked up at the nearest supermarket but it was obviously nothing like this. I was speechless which is rare for me. Before I met my husband my dating life wasn’t anything to write home about. I was awkward as a teenager and insecure throughout my twenties and thirties. When I met the ex-husband he was the first guy that really liked me that the…
So tonight is our second date. However if you would ask him and myself we would both say it’s probably more like our fourth or fifth. Being the fact that the first date was nine hours we sat through the lunch crowd the dinner crowd the snack crowd and outside for a while we feel that it really can’t count as only one. So all the jitters of those first couple of dates that you have are really gone for…
Normally I go on a first date and I’m pretty nervous. I spoke to this guy twice on the phone before our date for an hour each time and the conversation always went really smooth. If you read my post yesterday you know that I wasn’t overly nervous going on this date. I have course arrived early as I always do because I have yet to be late for anything plus I want to make sure I can park so…
