it’s the beginning of another week. Kind of strange when you don’t work because you’re weeks don’t normally run like a workday week. However every Monday is physical therapy and my daughter is back to school so I still consider it the start of the week. March is my last month of physical therapy, then it becomes a self-pay. They run a really great program called strive. You pay a monthly fee and you can use the gym and equipment…
I’m afraid to date. I’m afraid to be rejected again. I’m afraid to be hurt again. I’m afraid to fall in love again. I’m afraid of the pain. I’m afraid to have to explain the embarrassing MS symptoms again. I’m afraid of the embarrassment again. I’m afraid of the anxiety again. I’m even afraid of the excitement of it again. I’m afraid of the hope of it again. I’m afraid of the beginning, the middle, and the end. I’m just…
For the first time at probably two months I answered someone on match.com. I’m still under the same feeling that I don’t want to date, so I don’t really know why I reply, but her did. The conversation went back-and-forth for a bit and then I asked the question; did you actually read my profile, are you aware that I have a mess and I use a walker? Silence!!! I can’t say that I didn’t purposely say that for a…
What is a multiple sclerosis good day? It’s obviously different for everybody. Everybody has different symptoms, different challenges, different feelings and different things that they deal with in their daily life. So unfortunately, I can’t speak for everybody, I can only give my opinion. I want to say that I feel that anybody that has been diagnosed with multiple sclerosis is a warrior. If you’re newly diagnosed, and you’ve come through your relapse, you might have come off the battlefield, for now….
I have have a new favorite recipe. I’ve wanted to try this for a while and I finally whipped it together last night for dinner. First let me say, except for the Tahini, it was super easy. Yesterday was the first time I ever used Tahini. I ended up using my mini Cuisinart to mix it together, as instructed on the can. That was impossible to do. Is it supposed to be that difficult?The inside was hard and the top…
When you go to group meetings on the specific subjects, normally you talk about that subject. When I joined my MS support group, I guess I thought it would be more of a round circle kind of discussion group. I’ve definitely have walked away with information that is very useful. I’ve made friends that have been a wonderful additions. I just thought it would be more of a support group of people talking of issues, frustrations and feelings. I didn’t…
I’ve had a number of what I should weigh in my head my entire life. I’ve had an image of what I should look like. I should have the perfect figure…36, 24, 36. I don’t even know what that looks like. This perfect woman isn’t anorexic, she looks great, but guess what, that’s not me. I’m 5’2″ and I right now fluctuate between 145-150lbs. I use to fluctuate between 150-155lbs until I became vegan. My measurements are something like 36…
New York and the surrounding area is expecting a nor’easter tomorrow. Basically it means that everyone in the tri-state area makes French toast. You can’t find at the local supermarket eggs, milk or bread. I’ve lived in New York my whole life. I’ve been through my share of the nor’easter’s, hurricanes, rainstorms, and even windstorms. I have yet to see a time where we were unable to get a food delivery made to the local store to stock their shelves….
My dad has been talking about this meetup group he joined with me for months. Every week the group discusses a new topic chosen. I could always tell by our conversations how much he enjoyed attending the group. When I went down to Florida, I asked him to take me with him. It was held in a library and there were easily 25-30 people there. That weeks topic was quality of life. The meeting is run by a leader who…
I said in previous posts something was brewing with my MS lately, and unfortunately it still is. A quick note to my mom, if your about to read this, while in your hut, on a beautiful beach,on your vacation, I’m fine. I’m doing what I always do, accept, adjust, adapt. Well things aren’t so great MS wise, I wish I can say they were. Sometimes I wonder, did things get worse because I stopped working? Was that constant push on…
