Woke up to my phone ringing at 6:45. Thinking that it could be my daughter, I rolled to the floor instead of fighting with my stomach and arm muscles to put me in a sitting up position. By the time I got to the phone the answering machine picked up but my phone announces who is calling so I knew it wasn’t my daughter. They didn’t leave a message but by the name, I realized it was the aide they…
I was just turning 35 when my divorce started. My daughter was all of seven. I was losing my house because I couldn’t afford it by myself. I already have MS now for eight years. I pretended I wasn’t sad, scared, and everything was happy maybe for the sake of my daughter, maybe for the sake of myself, but looking back on things probably wasn’t the truth. I spent 10 years married three years before marriage with him. That was…
For the first time in a long time, I put in my morning affirmations an openness to meet someone. It’s been probably close to a year. My future person, if there is one, isn’t on match or plenty of fish. If I meet someone it’s being at the right place at the right time. Who is my guy? Well I can tell you who he isn’t. He’s not a sex crazed nympho-maniac. I don’t think I was ever in this…
If you’ve suffered through this disease for any amount of time, something strange will happen in your body and you’ll ask yourself this question. It’s normal. Eventually the answer stops making you crazy and you just deal with it. However, I believe that the longer you have the disease the more you know what is or isn’t the disease. Even better you know what symptom is making other problems of yours worse. Like today, I realized my shoulder tendonitis has…
The topic of peri-menopause has been coming up with my friends because we are at or around that age. I was curious of the symptoms of peri-menopause which webmd has listed as: Hot flashes Breast tenderness Worse premenstrual syndrome Lower sex drive Fatigue Irregular periods Vaginal dryness; discomfort during sex Urine leakage when coughing or sneezing Urinary urgency (an urgent need to urinate more frequently) Mood swings Trouble sleeping Great, considering about 3/4 of that list are also MS issue…
These aren’t new symptoms they come and go. I just wish I knew why. I guess I wish I knew why with a lot of MS related things. Spasticity has been bad this week. I woke up Monday morning, or I should say didn’t sleep well Sunday night from pain. I always describe the spasticity in my back as if someone was twisting my tendons and muscles like you would spaghetti onto a fork, that’s how it feels. I ended up…
Technically I’ve had Multiple Sclerosis for 20 years at this point. I had my first case of optic neuritis in the summer of 1997 but I wasn’t officially diagnosed until February 1998. Doesn’t really matter at this stage of the game but it is why, like I said in my post yesterday, I don’t prepare for my neurologist appointments. Yesterday I saw my neurologist that diagnosed me in 1998. I remember back in the beginning at my check ups I’d…
I have to admit something, since I started taking Prozac again, I stopped crying over everything. I was literally crying over everything good and bad, happy and sad, it didn’t matter. I didn’t want to believe it but I was not altogether. It’s been maybe 5-6 months I’ve been back on it and I realized something the other day. I am happy Is my life perfect, absolutely not, but I’m happy. I started my spiritual journey over a year and…
I have this wonderful woman that comes to my home every week to work me out. She is an MS fitness trainer. She doesn’t have me doing weights or cardio, she has me working with kickballs and rings and my own body weight to work and move muscles that are weak and damaged. Muscle movements I would never go near because they are hard. Lots of core work. My very first attack back in 1998 left my left leg with…
I don’t like to complain in my blog. Ok, sometimes I do. I live with a chronic illness of multiple sclerosis everyday, eventually you break and post your disgust. I’d like to say that I don’t do it often. That being said, I have to complain this morning over just some stupid stuff that is really all resolved now. It would have been my blog post yesterday but I had that migraine and I just couldn’t focus to write. It…
