I almost signed up for Nutrisystem yesterday. Luckily my mom called and I asked her what she thought before I push the button to purchase. She talked me out of it and she made extremely good sense as to why it was pointless. Purchasing pre-portioned, vacuum sealed, preservative induced foods against what I eat normally was extremely dumb.  I eat fresh foods. I make meals from scratch. I don’t eat anything that has been processed. I read labels all…
I had another week where I gained weight on weight watchers for no reason. I was very upset and angry and so I cheated. A lovely cycle. Feeling even worse now I started on a dark path of negative thoughts. I started to google the various surgeries that are out there for overweight people. I even filled out one of the doctors forms for more information. I was turned down because my BMI is too low. I started searching medication…
Very frustrating. I’ve now done two separate blood work tests and no answers. The bloodwork my neurologist requested showed six different deficiencies in all my B cells which was expected. That’s what Ocrevus, my main medicine for MS, is suppose to do. The rest of the panel including my thyroid was fine. Two days later bloodwork was drawn from my OB/GYN. Here I was checking to see if I was possibly in pre-menopause. When she called me she informed me…
This is definitely been a new one for me. I probably have been on and off weight watchers since I’ve been about 10. There’s nothing I really don’t know about dieting, especially the weight watchers plans. However this one actually requires a lot of thought. The current plan, called smart points, is a protein-based plan. Meaning, lean meats are the lowest points. Carbohydrates, even the whole-grain complex ones, a much higher points. The vegan diet, obviously, does not eat any meats….
I made a decision yesterday to join weight watchers again. I’m up about 10 lbs from goal weight which isn’t terrible but that weight has been creeping up slowly since I stopped working out in June. Yes, vegans can gain weight. I’m just eating a lot of vegan crap and I can’t seem to get it under control on my own. I need the accountability of facing a scale each week. Unfortunately, sometimes when I’m on my own and I’m in…
In meditation and my prayers I’ve been trying to change the way I see myself, change my body image perception and my ideal goal numbers. I compare myself to everyone and never in a positive way. I am the most critical of myself and I am the most critical of myself in body image and weight. I always have an answer, excuse a criticism when I look in the mirror, so I basically stopped looking from my neck down. I…
This is me, raw, no makeup, in my pjs, I may have brushed my hair. This is my blog. This is my journey. However, I always hope that I help someone. I hope somebody can relate to this. I hope I can connect. But in the end I write for me. Today this blog is about me. Today I’m setting forth my intentions in a contract to myself. I wrote a blog not too long ago that me and my issues…
My daughter stepped on the scale and was 5-6 pounds lighter. My daughter, who is normal and not obsessed with the scale as her mom, doesn’t weigh herself often. She has no reason to, she’s very thin, looks wonderful in everything, she’s 17. Her mother, on the other hand, has finally learned to limit herself to once a week. However when her daughter weight was so low, I needed to check the scale myself. It was the same as four days…
If you follow my blog, you may have picked up by now that I’m scale obsessed. For anyone who just happened to stumble upon my blog, I’m scale obsessed. I keep a close enough eye on things to know I haven’t gained any significant weight. I bounce around a five pound mark but that’s about it. I’m not thin, by any means, but I’ve maintained my current weight and size for years. I’ve held my hourglass figure my whole life,…
