It’s my birthday tomorrow. For some reason I woke up a little sad today. I think I actually became sad yesterday. I’m always sad at the middle year marks 25, 35 and now 45. I took turning 30 and 40 fine. It seems I’m alone in the 5’s. My divorce started right when I was turning 35. It was such a monumental change in my life. I was still in my house. I still have five cats running around. Boomer…
Yesterday I had to make my way to the mall. When I first got there I couldn’t find any parking where I needed to park. They had these new spaces that were for the handicap now call Simon reserved parking. This I guess is for people who have some kind of card with the mall. All the malls by me on Long Island are Simon malls. So I guess this is Simon pass whatever it is have priority parking and…
OK in my case maybe it’s two days. Yesterday I decided it’s time to put the sadness behind me I put my braces in my sneakers, I put my foot in the sneakers, I tied up my sneakers and I walked out the door. I drove with the braces which was a little difficult but maybe it will take more time or maybe I can’t drive with the braces haven’t decided that one yet. I got to my destination and…
The concept of love replacing fear is a major lesson in a course in miracles. It seems easy enough in some parts of my life but it is increasingly harder in other parts. First is my fear over money. I’m always worried about being able to pay me bills. This is one area that my life coach and I have been working on for a while. I’m trying to retrain my thoughts, manifest abundance and think everyday without the fear….
“I rid myself of doubts knowing that there is a valid reason for everything that happens.” Every morning I hear this in my morning meditation and every morning it soothes me. Now I know immediately a skeptic is out there reading this one line saying “there is a valid reason for the Orlando shooting or the Paris massacre”, NO. I personally don’t look at it for that although some people can as a way to make sense of tragedy. For…
You need to go through the darkness to find the light. We need to suffer or be sad to come out stronger. I needed to hit rock bottom to start my spiritual journey. Let me tell you this journey isn’t a smooth one by any means. You aren’t just trying to change your thought process, you’re learning how to think. I’m forgiving people who never said sorry. I’m looking inside and seeing things I’ve done wrong that are ugly. …
I don’t think there are many people that don’t know the serenity prayer. It hold true to so many beliefs because it holds true to so many things. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. People included. There are so many things in the world just completely outside our control especially other people. I can never control the actions of another no matter how much I want to. With my child I can hope that…
This was going to be a bad post. I was working out this morning and my legs and arms were giving me such issues. The squats were next to impossible. The shoulder press exercises that I use to do with a 15lb weight I started at an 8 lowered to a 6 and finally had to go to a 3lb weight. By the time I was at this point the tears were flowing. I was so frustrated and angry of…
