When I was 16 or 17 years old I went to a psychic, the only thing I remember, and unfortunately I’ve always lived by, she told me I won’t have a lot of friends but the few that I would have will be true friends. I remember thinking that’s good I’ll have true friends for the rest of my life. At 16 and 17 when girls were still backstabbing each other I thought that was a pretty good thing. As…
I have a very specific schedule in the morning. I wake up I brush my teeth first, feed the dogs as brew my coffee, I pour my coffee, and I work out. Before I pick up my iPad, iPhone or anything else, I pick up my Course in Miracles book. The lesson for the day is always where I begin. I use to meditate right after, but since I got the puppy, that has gone out the window. Instead, I…
We’ve all said things or did things that we regret, we’re human. It’s very hard to forgive someone who hurt us and even harder to forgive ourselves. We replay the story over and over and over in our heads, punishing ourselves maybe hoping for a different outcome. Definitely trying to justify our actions and why we did whatever we did. I had a wicked fight with my daughter last week and she didn’t do anything really. We made a deal months…
I was future tripping yesterday. A very evil thing to do. Future tripping, in my world, is when you worry about what’s going to happen in the future when you really have no idea. So you get your all worked up over a possibility but not an actuality. I future trip over the same three things in my life; my multiple sclerosis,where am I going to live or my finances. I work hard at NOT doing it but one of…
it’s the beginning of another week. Kind of strange when you don’t work because you’re weeks don’t normally run like a workday week. However every Monday is physical therapy and my daughter is back to school so I still consider it the start of the week. March is my last month of physical therapy, then it becomes a self-pay. They run a really great program called strive. You pay a monthly fee and you can use the gym and equipment…
It’s 62° in New York today and tomorrow we are getting 3 to 5 inches of snow. By the weekend will be seeing 26°, a possible snowstorm on Tuesday and Wednesday as well as cold temperatures with a high of 40° . But in the 62° weather I’m driving around with my sunroof open my windows lowered and my music blasting. People looking at me as if they’re expecting some 18-year-old kid in the car and they are shocked…
At a nice dinner last night with my parents we briefly talked about my past relationships and any future relationships. I said something that finally was the truth about how I feel. I don’t want to date because I DON’T TRUST MYSELF YET and I don’t know if I ever will. I just know I NEVER WANT TO BE THAT GIRL I WAS AGAIN. Don’t they say abstinence is the best prevention. I made bad choices for myself. My ex-husband…
This is so follow up or maybe part 2 of yesterday’s post. I’ve listen to many people and read many blogs that discuss the need for assistance devices and how they “aren’t ready”. A huge part of the progression of multiple sclerosis chips away at your personal independence. It’s a stage of the disease that affects the ego and the perception of normal or healthy. It’s when we start to look different from everyone else. When we can’t hide the…
My life coach says I’m in a growth stage and not wanting to date is perfectly ok. I must admit, originally I thought I’d take a few weeks, a month off, then Boomer, my beloved English Bulldog died. In that grieving time, besides bonding and training a new puppy, I also got to a very good place in A Course in Miracles. I just felt good being alone. It wasn’t a matter of the multiple sclerosis, although that will always…
