I watched Selma Blair’s documentary the other day. It was a good documentary on her journey through her stem cell treatment. I can’t say my heart didn’t feel her fear and sadness during her MS struggles. I had a completely different path with my MS symptoms and onset. It always amazes me that this disease can be so different for each person yet we still relate completely to each other. Selma Blair and I are both the same age and…
Well after my blog on Wednesday, I figured I better lighten things up a little. I just don’t know if I have anything light to talk about. It’s not that anything is necessarily bad but it isn’t that great either. I had terrible spasticity this week. My legs have been super stiff. It has made getting up out of my chair and bed difficult. It is very difficult to move when one or both of your legs don’t want to…
Sometimes I stare at this blank page and I really know what I want to say. Other times I really don’t have a clue. There are times I know what I want to say but I am to scared to say it. I fear that I might not write it properly and it would be misunderstood. This might be one of those blogs. Let me say right away I am not depressed. I am not suicidal. I am not trying…
I had my lovely sister over this weekend. We were discussing the possible change in my nursing aide hours. This is all coming from the incident when I fell and couldn’t get up. https://multipleexperiences.org/2021/08/27/i-pressed-the-med-alert-button/. After this unfortunate issue, my mom and step dad decided I needed more hours of care. I actually had an evaluation with my insurance a few days later by lucky coincidence. We made a request to change my nursing aide hours from 8 hours Monday-Friday to…
It has been another fast week. I keep saying that every week. I think time is speeding up and I am really not looking for any speeding tickets. I am, however, ready for my sweatshirts and warm pjs so the 70 degree weather can go. I am ready to be bundled up with hot chocolate again. While I’m thinking about bundling up my brother has been out biking getting himself ready for Bike MS. I always think to myself during…
I’m anxious today. I’ve had too many days already out of my normal routine and today is no different. I have to get the covid booster at 12 and game day in the building is at 1. I just finished exercising and getting dressed but I feel rushed. It didn’t help that I smacked my head on these ridiculous metal bars that are right behind my head on my wheelchair. All I need to do is not lean back straight…
It was a non existent hurricane in my area yesterday. Not just non existent but after the rain in the morning we didn’t even have rain. My mom, who lives 13 minutes from me, had rain on and off all day. My friend in the town next to me also had rain all day on and off but not me. It was so strange. The sun even started coming out while my mom was experiencing pouring rain. She didn’t believe…
Happy Friday. I’m sitting here deciding what I want to write about because I know I have things I want to say, I just don’t know if I want to say it in my blog. My blog,that I’ve written the most embarrassing moments, I suddenly don’t want to put my feelings on display. Unfortunately, my blog has been my place I work my shit out for years now. I don’t think I can truly move forward until I figure it…
I had physical therapy again yesterday which once again ended up disappointing. I walked less than I ever walked in these sessions of PT. I woke up feeling good. I did my normal morning routine. I felt good and then I started getting tired. Therapy was at 12 and by that time I was already feeling fatigued. I was determined to walk but my body wasn’t matching my will. It was pathetic and frustrating from the first step. Why??? This…
I forgot to take my nighttime pills before bed the other night. I should have realized when I was still awake after 11 o’clock. I was tired but unable to sleep. My leg was twitching, my neck was having little spasms and I don’t want to discuss what my stomach was doing. I can say it was the attention on my stomach that made me fall to realize why I was twitching. I’ve had a bunch of nights I forgot…
