I don’t like to rant. I try to keep my blog in a positive state of mind but sometimes I just am exhausted. I don’t need to do much anymore without suffering the consequences. People who haven’t seen me since the day I left my job would be amazed I would think. I have and continue to get worse. Sometimes my hands get so tired I can’t pick up my fork to eat dinner. My legs not only get tired…
I guess I should discuss my date. It was good. He was nice funny and we had things in common. Was he exactly my type? No not exactly. The truth in advertising wasn’t exact. Age ✅ height ✅ body type….ummmmm. I being a student of a course in miracles know you can’t look at the clothes we wear aka body but he put average body type and he was a larger boy. I was a little surprised. However weight can…
I don’t think there are many people that don’t know the serenity prayer. It hold true to so many beliefs because it holds true to so many things. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. People included. There are so many things in the world just completely outside our control especially other people. I can never control the actions of another no matter how much I want to. With my child I can hope that…
I think it’s happened to most people with disabilities at some point or another that we loose touch with friends as our physical limitations exclude us from activities. Mine happened in two parts. I am one of “those” people that disappear when I’m in a relationship. I know looking back I hurt people because I sided a loyalty with this “loved one” that many of my friends felt wasn’t a good person for me. The problem was I fell in…
Yesterday was a tough day. I went future tripping on the complete unknown of MS. I’m got very worked up and scared of the possible needs of my future when my daughter goes to college. From that point I went into a complete state of panic, sadness and the feeling of being overwhelmed. I cried throughout most of the day to just about anyone I spoke to. It was a mentally and physically debilitating day. i woke up today put…
1. I still have MS 2. Time goes very fast each day 3. The real housewives of any state have a lot of drama in their lives 4. Ive become a hibernating bear in the summer instead of the winter 5. My dogs like it that I’m here or at least that is what I choose to believe 6. I found life needed to be de-cluttered starting with my house 7. I found that I’ve become a great companion to…
This will be one of those rant posts. I started my day or early early morning waking up from a dream. One of those dreams where the other person that was in the dream was just mean, hurtful and painful. I woke up and literally looked up and said really. What am I supposed to learn from that one. Well it too a while but I did shake off the dream and got up, worked out. So far normal routine….
I’m going to my neurologist today that the specialist just the regular neurologist. The same one I’ve gone to for 18 years. The same one that diagnosed me. The one I’m most comfortable with. Lately I’ve been noticing I’m having problems remembering words and peoples names even though I might have just talked about it. I find that things aren’t leaving my head quick or the words are there but just can’t reach them. It’s a little scary. I…
since my site went down Saturday I wanted to repost this. To me this was a ah ha post worthy of an audience My new life coach gave me an assignment to come up with 10 feelings and attributes I want my future to have. It sounds funny but let me explain. It’s 10 feelings I want to feel that I either am seen by others as or probably most importantly how I want my life to be lead with….
On Monday evening I had a little incident with my daughter. She was upset with her boyfriend and took it out on me. I can’t say I didn’t understand because she’d be the first one to stand up and say my mom does it all the time. She’s 100% correct I’ve yelled at her for no good reason because I was in a bad mood as my mom has done to me. During the afternoon before this incident I was…
