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Not a happy New Year

Not a happy New Year

Hello everyone, Happy New Year. I know it seems like I disappeared but unfortunately I had legitimate reasons. I ended up in the hospital last Thursday with Covid and a UTI. It wasn’t really the Covid that put me in the hospital it was the combination of the two infections. I was so weak I was having difficulty sending a text message. I spent New Year’s Eve sleeping in a hospital bed. So much for 2022 being my year. I…

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Remaining hopeful it will help the spasticity

Remaining hopeful it will help the spasticity

Inconclusive. My bladder test was inconclusive. They said that the sample contained bacteria in their that couldn’t have come from the urine alone. I was thrilled I got urine in the cup. That was a challenge in itself for someone with multiple sclerosis and bladder issues. I even was able to use the little handy wipe they give you before you give the sample. I was so proud of myself that day. So much for that gold star. Thank goodness…

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Who am I without multiple sclerosis?

Who am I without multiple sclerosis?

I was thinking the other day, what if there was a magic pill to cure multiple sclerosis? What if I can take something that not only stops future disability but cures current disability? What if tomorrow I could actually walk again? I have spent half my life with MS. It is part of my identity, even though I pretend it isn’t. Who am I without my disease? I have this recurring dream that I’m working but still collecting disability. In…

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Monday morning again…

Monday morning again…

We arrived at Monday once again. I feel like I am on a fast track through these days, weeks, months and years. That is saying something considering most of my days are spent in front of the TV. I am far from highly stimulated most days. Yet the days are going fast. I know I’ve said this many times before. I’m sorry I’m repeating myself. I just find it amazing sometimes. I got to spend a few hours with my…

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Another fall to face the truth

Another fall to face the truth

Well another episode started off an otherwise lovely evening. My mom and stepdad were coming over for dinner and to watch Yellowstone. We missed last week’s episode so we were in for a double feature. It was just about 4:00 when I hung up with my mother. I was getting up to feed my puppies. I didn’t transfer to my wheelchair well. I ended up sliding down to the floor. When I got up I would have taken the increase…

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My neurologist visit

My neurologist visit

Well yesterday was a visit to my neurologist. I want to thank my pseudo uncle for driving my van. I am not so comfortable driving on the parkways anymore. My first words to my neurologist were “did you miss me?” I have been coming to see him for almost 24 years. I just turned 50, that is almost 1/2 my life. He has been on my multiple sclerosis journey from day 1. He was the neurologist that told me I…

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How do you feel?

How do you feel?

I had a really good birthday day. I woke in a very cheery. I just stayed that way all day. How could I not? Every second I was either on the phone with someone wishing me the best or answering a text. I felt so loved. I was exhausted by the end of the evening from talking. However, I just felt enveloped in a gigantic heart bubble. It was pretty amazing. Worth turning 50. On Tuesday, my aide was off…

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A tired rant

A tired rant

My daughter came home. Her health insurance is still in NY and she needed to see the “female” doctor. She decided to come home Wednesday evening because she was able to get an appointment for Thursday. Otherwise she would have had to wait until some time in December. She has to go for a sonogram before she leaves Friday morning. I am just happy I got an extra day to see her that was unexpected. I just love her face….

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Put on a happy face

Put on a happy face

Daylights savings was Sunday morning at 2am. I am waiting for this to finally end. I know that there has been legislation within the courts. I also know that each state within each time zone has to approve it to finally do away with it. https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.usatoday.com/amp/6233980001. This weekend we gained the hour. I was up at my normal time. The clock might have said 7:30 but my body knows it is really 8:30. So do my dogs. Now it will…

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The things we don’t say

The things we don’t say

Sometimes I stare at this blank page and I really know what I want to say. Other times I really don’t have a clue. There are times I know what I want to say but I am to scared to say it. I fear that I might not write it properly and it would be misunderstood. This might be one of those blogs. Let me say right away I am not depressed. I am not suicidal. I am not trying…

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