It’s hard to believe where I was 2 and 1/2 years ago. I just stopped working becoming permanently disabled. My boyfriend broke off whatever it was that we were having for the last 4+ years. It was an extremely volatile, narcissistic, unhealthy, and just a horrible relationship. I couldn’t leave him but I was an empty shell of the person I once was. Most of my friends had stopped talking to me because of him and I was alone. I…
I can’t believe I’ve been doing A Course in Miracles for almost 2 years. I can’t believe it’s been a year since my spirit junkie master class. I can’t believe how my life has changed so much in these two years. When you’re on a journey of spiritual growth and transformation, something pretty amazing can happen. At a certain point, you hear the call to share the lessons you’ve learned. But even when that call is loud, I know the…
Oh, it’s just me, myself and I Solo ride until I die ‘Cause I got me for life Oh I don’t need a hand to hold Even when the night is cold I got that fire in my soul I woke up singing this song this morning. It’s easy to feel that way with a chronic illness. Especially if you’re single. It’s not that I don’t have a great family, I do. It’s not that I don’t have great friends,…
I’ve been a little sad lately. I’d love to answer I know why but I don’t even know. I just know I feel a little off, a little down, and just not my normal self. I can’t wrap myself up in my spiritual studies well. I haven’t been meditating. My morning affirmations have been difficult. I knew I needed a blog today about things I’m grateful for instead of things that are absent. My daughter’s birthday is on Sunday, she’s…
This was sent to me by my sister over two years ago when I started on my path of self-discovery and spiritual understanding. At first I didn’t quite understand the meaning until I started to understand myself, my actions and more importantly my thoughts. As I myself heal this poem became clearer and clearer to me. It’s one of those poems that are saved in my favorites in my phone and on my computer because every now and then I…
The Secret was a documentary film made in 2006. The movie answers how to get the things you desire most in your life. What is the Secret? Law of attraction. What you think in your mind you attract in your life. Sounds simple, doesn’t it? Thoughts become things both good and bad. Imagine yourself like a magnet, except it’s with your thoughts. You walk around and your thoughts are magnetically pulling things to you, like attracts like. If you walk…
My life coach challenged me to write blogs showing self love. It’s been something I’ve been struggling with lately. Who am I kidding, it’s something I’ve struggled with my whole life. I can self love from the neck up, I’m pretty horrible from the neck down. I judge myself very harshly based on my weight and I always have. I thought my weight gain might of leveled off and now I’m not so sure. It’s been disheartening to say the…
Thought I do something different today. I’ve been doing this meditation for the past few weeks. This is a simple guided meditation in less than 12 minutes. It’s all about the law of attraction. Change your life and try something new. In the New Thought philosophy, the law of attraction is the belief that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts people can bring positive or negative experiences into their life. Wikipedia https://youtu.be/fKV8_5h3P_I
It just dawned on me, that February 14 was my 20 year anniversary with MS. It was the weekend of February 14 that I was moving it to my house with my ex-husband. My left leg started to feel numb. The numbness started traveling up my leg through my muscles. I wasn’t just numb, my muscles were becoming week and atrophied. It was The following Friday I went to a family doctor who sent me immediately to this neurologist. To…
My ex-boyfriend has always read my blog. I confronted him about it maybe five months ago, I question why he read my blog. I wondered was it his narcissistic mind that made him read it my blog or was it that he actually gave a shit. His reply was what do you think? I always knew it was him because he go on in a specific way after he got blocked from Google+, Twitter, LinkedIn etc. I have a post…
