My blog is 1 year old tomorrow. I just woke up one day and said I want to write a blog. I didn’t know who would ever read it or exactly what I was going to say, I just knew I was going to be honest. I knew I was going to write about my life and struggles with MS, my daughter, dating, and my dogs. So much has changed in the last year since I started writing.
- My dog Boomer died. This broke my heart this year. Boomer was 6 months old when my husband and I separated. When I sold my house and moved into our apartment, Boomer started sleeping out of the cage. Every night he’d sleep on the bed with me. Boomer was my first dog I owned. He was my dog and I loved and spoiled him. He was my rock and his fur held many of my tears. Losing Boomer took a piece of my heart away that will never come back. I have 2 other dogs that I love immensely but none will ever be Boomer.
- I became vegan. I’m asked a lot, why? It wasn’t because I watched were our meats really come from, I could NEVER watch that kind of slaughter. I saw the movie Forks over Knives and it made sense to me. I thought the less processed, more natural food I consume the better it is for my body and what is better for my body is better for my Multiple sclerosis. It will be 7 months now and I don’t feel different but my digestive track has been reset and fixed. For that reason, it’s been totally worth it.
- I stopped dating. It was just getting to hard for me. I didn’t have the energy anymore. What I need is a companion or a friend. I can’t do anymore what girlfriends are expected to do. It’s hard to be on these dating sites with a chronic condition to start with. It’s even harder when you can’t hide your chronic condition, I walk with a walker. It’s near impossible to be on these sites when you can’t do most of the activities the date wants to do. I had to realize IF I was to ever met someone it was a chance meeting not on a dating site and even still I think it’s more on a mutual companion level.
- A Courxe in Miracles. This is the biggest part of my spiritual journey. In wake up and read the days workbook lesson before I will pick up my phone, iPad or turn on the TV. I’m currently on lesson 342 of 365. When I’m finished I will just start over. This book changed my life. It’s changed my thinking. I’ve learned to forgive those who hurt me but mostly I learned to forgive myself. This book helped set in motion a guidance system for me that I follow and have followed everyday for the last 343 days.
- Stopped talking to my ex-boyfriend or he stopped talking to me. It started roughly around the time I started this blog. He was a very tough period of mine. I was in a very dark place for a very, very long time. It was over my blog year, my writing, my Course in Miracles that I found forgiveness and understanding both for him but mostly for myself. I had so much shame, embarrassment, regret, and anger, it took me a long time to work through. I don’t hate him, I don’t blame him. I was there, I was in it and I own that. This is what my spiritual journey taught me. I’ve learned to forgive and let it go.
- Expect the unexpected. I never knew of this whole blogging world. I never knew there were so many other warriors out there fighting through a disease or challenge and blogging. I met some amazing people out there from all over that have touched my life in a comment or their own blog. I thank all of you for showing me what an amazing community blogging is.
- My daughter graduated high school. She’s going to college no is living in NYC. This lead to the realization I needed help and with that started the process of getting an aide. The aide started this week.
- Started the process for Ocrevus the new FDA approved drug for MS. However, it is sister to Rituxan which I’ve taken for over a year now.
I want to thank everyone who has ever read my blog, made a comment or subscribed. I can’t tell you how much I’ve appreciated all your support and encouragement over the last year. I hope that my blog touches someone, somewhere, somehow, and that in the end is my ultimate goal. Thank you for making this a wonderful first year of blogging.