This is the first day I am actually Writing my blog from my balcony. My new furniture came in yesterday. It’s very pretty. I open my sliding glass door got some air coming in. The sun is beating down on my face causing me to sweat a little. Truthfully I need to sweat a little, sweat out some of the alcohol from last night. I don’t know what it is about my firestick friend, when he comes over we seem…
You know when you can wake up and know it’s gonna be a bad day? I’ve been on the floor four times already today and it wasn’t from falling. It was for my hands knocking things over and I had to find them to pick him up. I woke up upset because at 4 o’clock in the morning I had an accident. This is the third time that it’s happened while I was asleep.WTF???? Is this going to be something…
I shared my story of my kiss last week. It was nice. The truth is I shut myself off from all relationships for over a year. That was my first kiss in 14 months. However, I’m pretty sure it was the last kiss with him. I’ve spoken to him a couple of times since then, but I think we’re going to be friends and that’s OK. When I turn this over to the universe I said the best outcome for…
Well add one part wine, brought by him, two parts attraction and a little honesty and what do you get? A kiss. I’m in sweatpants and a sweatshirt, not my most attractive look, but not expecting the nights events either. Maybe i would have shaved and put on some make up. Definitely would have changed into something more appealing but I neither expected this nor though it would happen tonight. Guess what? Interest laid on both sides. I gave my…
It’s been a strange couple of days. I’m finally able to start taking my high dose biotin again. If you read any of my other threads on biotin, and there are many, what mostly showed in the biotin is that my walking speed increased by seven seconds. This is according to my neurological test by my doctor. However I’ve stated, and I still stand by, that biotin helped do more. Besides noticing more weakness in my legs and hip area,…
For the first time in a long time, I put in my morning affirmations an openness to meet someone. It’s been probably close to a year. My future person, if there is one, isn’t on match or plenty of fish. If I meet someone it’s being at the right place at the right time. Who is my guy? Well I can tell you who he isn’t. He’s not a sex crazed nympho-maniac. I don’t think I was ever in this…
What do you say? Is it easy to imagine a different life? A life where you weren't sick. A life where walking wasn't difficult. A life where you can feel if your hair was dry or damp or your clothes are cotton or silk. Each year that goes by the image fades a little more. I've had MS for so long I can't imagine my life without it anymore. The girl who didn't need a walker passed away over 3…
It’s official, my match.com membership ends on May 17. I haven’t been really active on match since November. The last guy dated started off really good, it was my nine-hour date, the blog about it here https://multipleexperiences.org/2016/10/03/my-9-hour-best-first-date/. He was a nice guy, but it wasn’t for me. I put up many blogs about how I don’t want to date. I’m scared to date for a few reasons. It’s a funny feeling because I don’t want to be alone but I don’t want to…
I’m afraid to date. I’m afraid to be rejected again. I’m afraid to be hurt again. I’m afraid to fall in love again. I’m afraid of the pain. I’m afraid to have to explain the embarrassing MS symptoms again. I’m afraid of the embarrassment again. I’m afraid of the anxiety again. I’m even afraid of the excitement of it again. I’m afraid of the hope of it again. I’m afraid of the beginning, the middle, and the end. I’m just…
For the first time at probably two months I answered someone on match.com. I’m still under the same feeling that I don’t want to date, so I don’t really know why I reply, but her did. The conversation went back-and-forth for a bit and then I asked the question; did you actually read my profile, are you aware that I have a mess and I use a walker? Silence!!! I can’t say that I didn’t purposely say that for a…
