Wow, that was fast year. Happy new year to everyone, have to start with that. I hope everybody had a safe and wonderful evening wherever you were. I have to be honest, I was asleep before midnight. I think this is the first time I fell asleep on New Year’s before midnight. I was always so happy to be done with the current year and hopeful that the next year would be better that I guess I had to see…
One of the greatest things about my blog, is the feedback I’ve gotten from people that have known me for years. It’s the first time they really seen into my life on a daily basis. The truth is as soon as the how are you feeling question is asked, I immediately, say ok, how are you? I mean really what was I going to say to them, I had an accident today I peed my pants or or maybe I…
I found out last night, an old friend has cancer. It started as breast cancer and has spread to her bones. This is a woman I use to work with. She has the greatest sense of humor and her laugh is contagious. Life is very unfair sometimes. After I spoke with her, I was taking my dogs outside to their little dog run, and as I sat on my chairlift going down, I was grateful. I know that sounds horrible,…
I use to be such a negative person. My sister use to point it out to me all the time. I never asked her but I know she hasn’t said it to me in a long time. I know I looked upon the world with dark tinted glasses and a “why me” attitude. In January 2016 my sister went to a lecture held by Kris Carr and Gabby Bernstein and told me about it. They had their entire lecture series…
Technically I’ve had Multiple Sclerosis for 20 years at this point. I had my first case of optic neuritis in the summer of 1997 but I wasn’t officially diagnosed until February 1998. Doesn’t really matter at this stage of the game but it is why, like I said in my post yesterday, I don’t prepare for my neurologist appointments. Yesterday I saw my neurologist that diagnosed me in 1998. I remember back in the beginning at my check ups I’d…
I have to admit something, since I started taking Prozac again, I stopped crying over everything. I was literally crying over everything good and bad, happy and sad, it didn’t matter. I didn’t want to believe it but I was not altogether. It’s been maybe 5-6 months I’ve been back on it and I realized something the other day. I am happy Is my life perfect, absolutely not, but I’m happy. I started my spiritual journey over a year and…
They have an App!!! Where was this thing last year. It has the entire workbook on it. What really is great about it is the settings. Everyday the workbook has lessons and each lesson has a set interval of practices throughout the day. The app is set to know based on which days lesson you are on, what the interval schedule. When the reminders are turned on, it automatically chimes at each scheduled interval. You can, of course change, the…
My dad and I were talking about me having multiple sclerosis. He was saying it wasn’t fair, I have a good heart. My first words were I still have a good heart, that hasn’t changed but I knew what he meant. I heard this before from him, from my mom, my stepdad, from most of my family. They look at multiple sclerosis “stealing” away part of my life. I’ve discussed this topic a few times in my blogs. …
I’m very proud of myself, I haven’t stepped on the scale in a month. Today for this post, I stepped on. My weight 150.3. Technically, I am down 2lbs from a month ago, but my body usually hovers around the 150.0 mark naturally. For clarification purposes. I am 5’2″ so according to the charts, I am overweight. I am a size 8 in jeans, even own some 6 and some 10. I decided a month ago I had enough of…
What do you say? Is it easy to imagine a different life? A life where you weren't sick. A life where walking wasn't difficult. A life where you can feel if your hair was dry or damp or your clothes are cotton or silk. Each year that goes by the image fades a little more. I've had MS for so long I can't imagine my life without it anymore. The girl who didn't need a walker passed away over 3…
