I was diagnosed with MS in 1998. That was over 19 years ago. It’s 42.2% of my life. That’s a long time. There’s only one sure thing with a chronic disease, it holds true with any situation, the only part fully in your control is Your attitude Yes, you could eat right, take the medicine as directed, exercise, not smoke, and not do drugs, these are all wonderful things that may slow down a disease, but it won’t cure one….
When I was 16 or 17 years old I went to a psychic, the only thing I remember, and unfortunately I’ve always lived by, she told me I won’t have a lot of friends but the few that I would have will be true friends. I remember thinking that’s good I’ll have true friends for the rest of my life. At 16 and 17 when girls were still backstabbing each other I thought that was a pretty good thing. As…
I’m sure you’ve heard somewhere reading, commercials or seeing it on the Internet, the power of the brain. When I started my spiritual journey, the talk about the brain, and the power of it, made me wonder if somehow my thinking made me sick? Did I give myself multiple sclerosis? The brain is said to have such capacity and we only use 10% of it. I honestly could say I’ve always believed that theory. It is said that 65% of Americans…
I have a very specific schedule in the morning. I wake up I brush my teeth first, feed the dogs as brew my coffee, I pour my coffee, and I work out. Before I pick up my iPad, iPhone or anything else, I pick up my Course in Miracles book. The lesson for the day is always where I begin. I use to meditate right after, but since I got the puppy, that has gone out the window. Instead, I…
I was future tripping yesterday. A very evil thing to do. Future tripping, in my world, is when you worry about what’s going to happen in the future when you really have no idea. So you get your all worked up over a possibility but not an actuality. I future trip over the same three things in my life; my multiple sclerosis,where am I going to live or my finances. I work hard at NOT doing it but one of…
It’s 62° in New York today and tomorrow we are getting 3 to 5 inches of snow. By the weekend will be seeing 26°, a possible snowstorm on Tuesday and Wednesday as well as cold temperatures with a high of 40° . But in the 62° weather I’m driving around with my sunroof open my windows lowered and my music blasting. People looking at me as if they’re expecting some 18-year-old kid in the car and they are shocked…
During my treatment yesterday, there was a man sitting next to me that I started talking to. The conversation started after he had to take a phone call and felt bad that he thought he was disrupting his neighbor. He apologize for the call and explained his brother-in-law was going in for triple bypass surgery today. He was sitting next to me getting Chemotherapy. I politely explain no need for apologies, I totally understood . From there we…
This is probably my favorite song. Its meaning translated to me towards a breakup to start. It has evolved since I started reading A Course in Miracles. It’s become the battle with my Ego mind over my inner guide. It’s become my anthem. My choice over who is going to win. It is my choice. I have learned my ego isn’t my friend. It has guided me in the wrong direction and creating a very unhappy world. I’m so very…
Thanksgiving. Today is a wonderful day to give thanks for the amazing things you have in your life. Big or small there is something that keeps you motivated and moving everyday. My blog is mostly about multiple sclerosis but there is so much more to my life than my disease and I have so many things that I’m so thankful for. I am so grateful for meeting my ex-husband. For marrying him because through him I received my daughter and…
It’s my birthday tomorrow. For some reason I woke up a little sad today. I think I actually became sad yesterday. I’m always sad at the middle year marks 25, 35 and now 45. I took turning 30 and 40 fine. It seems I’m alone in the 5’s. My divorce started right when I was turning 35. It was such a monumental change in my life. I was still in my house. I still have five cats running around. Boomer…
