Happy Saturday. So I had to change my subscription at weight watchers to online only. It made no sense, at this point, for me to keep going just to weigh in. My scale at home always match their scale to the point and I never stay for the meeting anyway. Since my three month subscription was up and I don’t want to quit, I figured it was a good switch and wasn’t as expensive. Since I started weight watchers on…
Well add one part wine, brought by him, two parts attraction and a little honesty and what do you get? A kiss. I’m in sweatpants and a sweatshirt, not my most attractive look, but not expecting the nights events either. Maybe i would have shaved and put on some make up. Definitely would have changed into something more appealing but I neither expected this nor though it would happen tonight. Guess what? Interest laid on both sides. I gave my…
Wow, that was fast year. Happy new year to everyone, have to start with that. I hope everybody had a safe and wonderful evening wherever you were. I have to be honest, I was asleep before midnight. I think this is the first time I fell asleep on New Year’s before midnight. I was always so happy to be done with the current year and hopeful that the next year would be better that I guess I had to see…
I’ve had a blog about this in the past. This is from a course in miracles, and is and always will be my favorite lesson. It was always the hardest lesson for me learn because I am the queen of defense. When someone would say something to me, I always jump to my own defense. If I felt backed into a corner, I would claw my way out. Am I cured, absolutely not, but I’m a 1000 times better. The…
Technically I’ve had Multiple Sclerosis for 20 years at this point. I had my first case of optic neuritis in the summer of 1997 but I wasn’t officially diagnosed until February 1998. Doesn’t really matter at this stage of the game but it is why, like I said in my post yesterday, I don’t prepare for my neurologist appointments. Yesterday I saw my neurologist that diagnosed me in 1998. I remember back in the beginning at my check ups I’d…
They have an App!!! Where was this thing last year. It has the entire workbook on it. What really is great about it is the settings. Everyday the workbook has lessons and each lesson has a set interval of practices throughout the day. The app is set to know based on which days lesson you are on, what the interval schedule. When the reminders are turned on, it automatically chimes at each scheduled interval. You can, of course change, the…
My dad and I were talking about me having multiple sclerosis. He was saying it wasn’t fair, I have a good heart. My first words were I still have a good heart, that hasn’t changed but I knew what he meant. I heard this before from him, from my mom, my stepdad, from most of my family. They look at multiple sclerosis “stealing” away part of my life. I’ve discussed this topic a few times in my blogs. …
What do you say? Is it easy to imagine a different life? A life where you weren't sick. A life where walking wasn't difficult. A life where you can feel if your hair was dry or damp or your clothes are cotton or silk. Each year that goes by the image fades a little more. I've had MS for so long I can't imagine my life without it anymore. The girl who didn't need a walker passed away over 3…
I heard a great line yesterday, when you point your finger in blame, three fingers are pointing back at you. I was never one to not own my mistakes. It might have taken me a little to process them but I always owned them in the end. My problem was always how I couldn’t get over how unfair it was that I owned my mistake, why doesn’t the other person. Sometimes my “theory of unfarity” became anger and obsession. I’m…
Yesterday I drove to physical therapy as normal and when I was getting out of my car, I realized how hot and humid it really was out. Normally I wouldn’t go on days like that, but I was there already, I wasn’t going to turn around and go home. So I hobbled my way in and the normal secretary, Millie, was there. Not thinking anything new, I did my typical good morning smile with a “happy Friday Millie, how you…
