His ashes came separate from his urn. A meltdown. I knew that this error would make the process of getting his ashes emotionally more difficult. I was correct. Years ago, when I lost Boomer, I never saw his ashes. https://multipleexperiences.org/2017/01/04/boomer-came-home/. The urn was closed and I still have no idea how to even open the box. I didn’t know what to expect. It wasn’t ashes. It was like gravel and small rock like pebbles.  Jusr holding that in my…
I haven’t talked about my MS in so long. It hasn’t been too bad, thankfully. I did end up on the floor after I worked out in the evening. Totally Rocked This I had this great work out but it did make me extremely tired and my recovery wasn’t quite on point. So transferring into my wheelchair didn’t go so well. I didn’t panic, or cry. It took me a little bit but I eventually got myself up and I…
Sometimes I even shock myself. Lagging all day. The only thing I ate was plain matzo with some grape jelly. I close my eyes quite a few times but never slept. yet everybody leaves my house, it’s all quiet, and I put on my workout gloves and work out. Not only did I work out but I had a great workout. That just makes me so happy. Do you have an average heart rate of 126, I mean that rocks….
I had a rough night. I had a very upset stomach. It’s 10:00 in the morning and I already completed 8/12 standing. Every part of my body aches but my stomach feels better. I haven’t slept and wasn’t able to fall back asleep. I was consoled the whole time by my little Zoey. Cuddled up next to me ❤️❤️. MS doesn’t help without sleep. I will drag myself through the day. Good thing I have nowhere to go still. I…
Ok I know I’ve been grieving for the last week but you’d think I’d notice bulldozers flattening land outside my window. The whole lot where the hotel is supposedly being built has been leveled. Last I heard the deal fell through although for a property that sold for 3.9 million dollars I wasn’t holding my breath that it would remain a pile of dirt. Yet when did they do this work? I’m staring out this window all day, everyday. I’m…
I got a package yesterday from the pet memorial place. I was certain it was the urn for my Marshy with his ashes and paw prints. I actually went downstairs to the guard booth to pick it up myself. I didn’t want it sitting there. I was already anxious and upset. These were what was left of my sweet boy. I opened the box and the urn, while pretty, was larger than I expected. It was also light, too light….
I don’t really know what to write. My heart is so heavy from the loss of my Marshmallow. I’ve stopped crying spontaneously but my heart hurts so much. Going to bed is the hardest part. Marshy was my one dog that ALWAYS slept touching me. Normally he slept under the blankets by my feet. As he got warm under there he’d come out and sleep on the blankets at my feet. This back and forth would go on all night…
I belong to three Facebook groups for dogs. One of them is English bulldogs and two are for French bulldogs. Anytime I see something posted about someone losing a dog, I always try to write. I completely understand and remember the pain of losing Boomer, my English Bulldog, over 3 years ago. When I lost my Marshmallow I posted it on one of the sites. I never realized how much those posts could actually bring a little comfort until it…
Still struggling with making the right call on my Marshy’s death. I questioned why nothing showed up in his bloodwork, urine or stool taken 6 weeks ago. I biopsies a lump on his side and I questioned a strange growing skin tag. How is he gone six weeks after his annual that he was fine at? My vet called me this morning explaining that cancer is different in dogs. There are some very aggressive cancers that can happen within weeks….
