Mood has improved from last week, I am happy to say. However I might have another tough week coming up. My daughter is away and my aide is on vacation. . I chose not to replace the aide anyway because I really hate having new people in the house. They don’t know where anything is, they are usually scared of the dogs and I have to make idle chit chat that can be exhausting. It puts too much stress on…
Happy Monday once again. These weeks come so fast. Can’t believe it’s November already. I turned 49 in a couple of weeks. Oh joy. I’m looking at pictures that are flashing on my fire stick and my mother was my age. My daughter, who is now 21, is only four years off from when I got married. Six years off from when I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. Seven years off from when I was pregnant with her. If that…
It is a rainy, cold and miserable day here in New York. The kind of day you want to sit on the couch wrapped up in a blanket and watch Netflix from morning to night.  The kind of day you pray you have nothing to do, nowhere to be, and no other obligations. The kind of day I am remotely grateful that I have multiple sclerosis and have nothing to do, nowhere to be and no other obligations. I…
My brother-in-law recently lost his mother. She was very young, too young, as young as my own mom. A truly wonderful woman. I was very fortunate to know her and she brought up the most amazing young man who is my brother-in-law. He is one of a kind, so generous and understanding. Yet what I love the most about him is he’s a realist. He sees things for the truth of the actuality of the situation. He might not like…
I woke up early today. I feel good, rested and ready to start the day. I wake up every morning happy. How can I not? The first thing I see are smiles My Plakie Humpty Dumpty dolls I’ve collected all my life. They always make me feel happy. Then I have my Zoey who is cuddled up next to me. She’ll stay sleeping until she senses any movement from me and then her eyes are wide open. Marshy is usually…
I use to love being on the boat with my dad. I loved the water being free like that with the wind blowing in your hair. If you love the water you know that feeling I’m talking about. I missed that feeling for a long time until I got on the back of a motorcycle. God I loved being on that motorcycle. This was the one thing I only did with one ex boyfriend and something I’ll never do again….
I just woke up feeling good today. Not so much MS good but mentally good. I should have said happy because that’s what it was just happy feelings. I always wake up and pet the dogs before getting out of bed. It is my morning ritual and both dogs know it. Marshy, who sleeps under the covers, emerges when he hears my voice and comes nuzzling next to me and immediately gives me his tummy to scratch. Zoey, who is…
There are a few things I’d like to happen in 2019 besides happiness and health. I’d love a cure for multiple sclerosis but I’m a realist so my vision board needs to be too. My handicap van. This is still not a certainty because of funding but it is number one on my vision board out of necessity. My finances. To be debt free and have a surplus in the bank. My weight perception. I’d like to be healthy and…
Too much food. Too much pie. A whole bunch of smiles. I would never complain it was worth every calorie consumed. I had a really great birthday and felt love from my family all over and from Facebook friends and fundraiser supporters. My beautiful daughter spent the entire day with me and after the food fest we watched A Star is Born on my Firestick program my friend set up for me. I get so much with the Firestick. Thank…
It’s my birthday and it falls on the day to be thankful this year. I have so much to be thankful for despite having multiple sclerosis because there is so much good in my life. I’m thankful for my ex-husband because in meeting him and falling in love, we produced my daughter. I’m thankful for my daughter. My world and my younger counterpart. The best present I ever received. My beautiful girl who has grown up to be a very…
