Another week, another month. I can’t believe it is May already. I feel like I missed something, like two months. It’s a bizarre feeling, 4 months went by and I did nothing, but they flew. I have been in bed for 4 months!!!! When I wasn’t physically sick, I had some dark days mentally. It was very easy to to give up. It still is. In a conversation I had with both my daughter and my life coach, I make…
I didn’t write it but looking back at my episode with physical therapy last week https://multipleexperiences.org/2022/04/22/breathing-issues/, may have been a panic attack. It seems that this week things aren’t going much better. I was able to stand right up on Sunday. I got into my wheelchair. I ate dinner at the table for the first time in ages. The next day I couldn’t stand up during physical therapy. This was the third visit that I felt was wasted. Medicare only…
I actually got out of bed and ate dinner at the table last night. I am tired of being in this bed. I might not have endurance. I might not be able to take a step. I can usually transfer to my wheelchair with some assistance. Key word is assistance. The aides that I currently have, that “assistance” is questionable. My weekend aide is lovely but her English isn’t good. I would have to translate instructions to her for everything….
I am very weak. My legs can’t hold me up for long. PT has been working on just getting me up and standing. I never thought something so simple would be so hard. Let me tell you, it is so hard. I try to sway back and forth shifting my weight as I hold onto a walker. I had to sit down again because I have no endurance. One day I was able to get back up once. The other…
I’ve managed to stay home since my last hospital release on March 5th. Please forgive my silence, it has taken me a while to adjust to the new me. I came home and I was still running low grade fevers up until recently. I’d wake up feeling achy most days. It is hard to try to work on strengthening your body when you feel yucky. I truthfully couldn’t get my head in the right space. I know all the positivity…
Yes, I’m still in the hospital with a pneumonia. Today marks day 12. I can definitely have another blog about what is happening especially since being immune suppressed isn’t helping the situation. Most people look at February 14 as the day of love but it will never be that for me. No, for me it will always be the weekend back in 1998 when I was moving into my new house. Valentine’s weekend and my left foot started to go…
Hello everyone, Happy New Year. I know it seems like I disappeared but unfortunately I had legitimate reasons. I ended up in the hospital last Thursday with Covid and a UTI. It wasn’t really the Covid that put me in the hospital it was the combination of the two infections. I was so weak I was having difficulty sending a text message. I spent New Year’s Eve sleeping in a hospital bed. So much for 2022 being my year. I…
Inconclusive. My bladder test was inconclusive. They said that the sample contained bacteria in their that couldn’t have come from the urine alone. I was thrilled I got urine in the cup. That was a challenge in itself for someone with multiple sclerosis and bladder issues. I even was able to use the little handy wipe they give you before you give the sample. I was so proud of myself that day. So much for that gold star. Thank goodness…
I was thinking the other day, what if there was a magic pill to cure multiple sclerosis? What if I can take something that not only stops future disability but cures current disability? What if tomorrow I could actually walk again? I have spent half my life with MS. It is part of my identity, even though I pretend it isn’t. Who am I without my disease? I have this recurring dream that I’m working but still collecting disability. In…
We arrived at Monday once again. I feel like I am on a fast track through these days, weeks, months and years. That is saying something considering most of my days are spent in front of the TV. I am far from highly stimulated most days. Yet the days are going fast. I know I’ve said this many times before. I’m sorry I’m repeating myself. I just find it amazing sometimes. I got to spend a few hours with my…
