I heard a great line yesterday, when you point your finger in blame, three fingers are pointing back at you. I was never one to not own my mistakes. It might have taken me a little to process them but I always owned them in the end. My problem was always how I couldn’t get over how unfair it was that I owned my mistake, why doesn’t the other person. Sometimes my “theory of unfarity” became anger and obsession. I’m…
Yesterday I drove to physical therapy as normal and when I was getting out of my car, I realized how hot and humid it really was out. Normally I wouldn’t go on days like that, but I was there already, I wasn’t going to turn around and go home. So I hobbled my way in and the normal secretary, Millie, was there. Not thinking anything new, I did my typical good morning smile with a “happy Friday Millie, how you…
After 8+ years, I have to give up my normal everyday workout routines. I need to find something else that works that doesn’t aggravate my shoulder tendonitis. My wonderful therapists over at physical therapy have started adding in arm exercises to help build up my arm muscles again. The plan is that instead of going 2 days a week to go to therapy 3 days a week. The focus is going to change to building up arm strength to better…
Right out of college Gabby Bernstein started her own PR business. When she transitioned her career to become a spiritual teacher, her marketing chops really came in handy! She got the attention of magazine editors, TV producers and big-time bloggers. She built an email list and a social media following to create a movement of Spirit Junkies. Gabby shared her story far and wide, manifesting media like Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday, a front-page feature in The New York Times Sunday…
I was diagnosed with MS in 1998. That was over 19 years ago. It’s 42.2% of my life. That’s a long time. There’s only one sure thing with a chronic disease, it holds true with any situation, the only part fully in your control is Your attitude Yes, you could eat right, take the medicine as directed, exercise, not smoke, and not do drugs, these are all wonderful things that may slow down a disease, but it won’t cure one….
I have a very specific schedule in the morning. I wake up I brush my teeth first, feed the dogs as brew my coffee, I pour my coffee, and I work out. Before I pick up my iPad, iPhone or anything else, I pick up my Course in Miracles book. The lesson for the day is always where I begin. I use to meditate right after, but since I got the puppy, that has gone out the window. Instead, I…
I was future tripping yesterday. A very evil thing to do. Future tripping, in my world, is when you worry about what’s going to happen in the future when you really have no idea. So you get your all worked up over a possibility but not an actuality. I future trip over the same three things in my life; my multiple sclerosis,where am I going to live or my finances. I work hard at NOT doing it but one of…
During my treatment yesterday, there was a man sitting next to me that I started talking to. The conversation started after he had to take a phone call and felt bad that he thought he was disrupting his neighbor. He apologize for the call and explained his brother-in-law was going in for triple bypass surgery today. He was sitting next to me getting Chemotherapy. I politely explain no need for apologies, I totally understood . From there we…
This is probably my favorite song. Its meaning translated to me towards a breakup to start. It has evolved since I started reading A Course in Miracles. It’s become the battle with my Ego mind over my inner guide. It’s become my anthem. My choice over who is going to win. It is my choice. I have learned my ego isn’t my friend. It has guided me in the wrong direction and creating a very unhappy world. I’m so very…
It’s my birthday tomorrow. For some reason I woke up a little sad today. I think I actually became sad yesterday. I’m always sad at the middle year marks 25, 35 and now 45. I took turning 30 and 40 fine. It seems I’m alone in the 5’s. My divorce started right when I was turning 35. It was such a monumental change in my life. I was still in my house. I still have five cats running around. Boomer…
