Yesterday I had to make my way to the mall. When I first got there I couldn’t find any parking where I needed to park. They had these new spaces that were for the handicap now call Simon reserved parking. This I guess is for people who have some kind of card with the mall. All the malls by me on Long Island are Simon malls. So I guess this is Simon pass whatever it is have priority parking and…
OK in my case maybe it’s two days. Yesterday I decided it’s time to put the sadness behind me I put my braces in my sneakers, I put my foot in the sneakers, I tied up my sneakers and I walked out the door. I drove with the braces which was a little difficult but maybe it will take more time or maybe I can’t drive with the braces haven’t decided that one yet. I got to my destination and…
The concept of love replacing fear is a major lesson in a course in miracles. It seems easy enough in some parts of my life but it is increasingly harder in other parts. First is my fear over money. I’m always worried about being able to pay me bills. This is one area that my life coach and I have been working on for a while. I’m trying to retrain my thoughts, manifest abundance and think everyday without the fear….
“I rid myself of doubts knowing that there is a valid reason for everything that happens.” Every morning I hear this in my morning meditation and every morning it soothes me. Now I know immediately a skeptic is out there reading this one line saying “there is a valid reason for the Orlando shooting or the Paris massacre”, NO. I personally don’t look at it for that although some people can as a way to make sense of tragedy. For…
You need to go through the darkness to find the light. We need to suffer or be sad to come out stronger. I needed to hit rock bottom to start my spiritual journey. Let me tell you this journey isn’t a smooth one by any means. You aren’t just trying to change your thought process, you’re learning how to think. I’m forgiving people who never said sorry. I’m looking inside and seeing things I’ve done wrong that are ugly. …
I don’t think there are many people that don’t know the serenity prayer. It hold true to so many beliefs because it holds true to so many things. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. People included. There are so many things in the world just completely outside our control especially other people. I can never control the actions of another no matter how much I want to. With my child I can hope that…
This was going to be a bad post. I was working out this morning and my legs and arms were giving me such issues. The squats were next to impossible. The shoulder press exercises that I use to do with a 15lb weight I started at an 8 lowered to a 6 and finally had to go to a 3lb weight. By the time I was at this point the tears were flowing. I was so frustrated and angry of…
What do you think when you look in the mirror? I wake up every morning and the very first thing I do before I pick up my toothbrush is look in the mirror. I look at my face for new blemishes, makeup that didn’t wash off completely, my hair and the mess that it is. I look at the deep line in my forehead wishing I had Botox. I look at the other lines on my face that seem more…
Good morning to all. I woke up in one of those happy moods. I opened up my shades singing “Let the sun shine, let the sun shine, let the shine in” from Hair. I got my scooter out to walk my dogs and we were all completely tangled by the time the scooter was out of the door. However, once untangled we had a lovely outing that went smoothly. There was no traumatic moments no other dog encounters and that…
Yesterday was a tough day. I went future tripping on the complete unknown of MS. I’m got very worked up and scared of the possible needs of my future when my daughter goes to college. From that point I went into a complete state of panic, sadness and the feeling of being overwhelmed. I cried throughout most of the day to just about anyone I spoke to. It was a mentally and physically debilitating day. i woke up today put…
