In meditation and my prayers I’ve been trying to change the way I see myself, change my body image perception and my ideal goal numbers. I compare myself to everyone and never in a positive way. I am the most critical of myself and I am the most critical of myself in body image and weight. I always have an answer, excuse a criticism when I look in the mirror, so I basically stopped looking from my neck down. I…
I came home from physical therapy, completely spent. I put on the television and there was an infomercial on for the Veggie Bullet. Within 13 seconds I was online checking it out. I use a Cuisinart food processor that I received as an engagement gift. Let’s just say that if I was still married, yesterday, May 25, would’ve been my 21st Anniversary. So the Cuisinart was an engagement gift which was easily received a year before that. It mostly works fine…
This is me, raw, no makeup, in my pjs, I may have brushed my hair. This is my blog. This is my journey. However, I always hope that I help someone. I hope somebody can relate to this. I hope I can connect. But in the end I write for me. Today this blog is about me. Today I’m setting forth my intentions in a contract to myself. I wrote a blog not too long ago that me and my issues…
Yes I apologize in advance, I’m back to weight and body image once again in my blog. I’m really convince a lot of clothes manufacturers changed the sizing of clothes. Clothes shopping has never been easy for me. Primarily, I have multiple sclerosis and can’t do it. Secondly, I’m a pear. When you’re a pear, your shopping for clothes to fit a smaller waist, larger hips, thighs, and butt. That and a 5 foot two frame, and you got a…
I battled with my weight my entire life. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in 1998. My neurologist’s letter to my primary care physician said, Jamie is a heavy set patient in her mid twenties, blah blah blah. I remember the physical therapy place I first went to had this computer bike. One time something wasn’t working right and the therapist said to another therapist that it happens only when a heavier person goes on. When I was in 6th…
I’ve had a number of what I should weigh in my head my entire life. I’ve had an image of what I should look like. I should have the perfect figure…36, 24, 36. I don’t even know what that looks like. This perfect woman isn’t anorexic, she looks great, but guess what, that’s not me. I’m 5’2″ and I right now fluctuate between 145-150lbs. I use to fluctuate between 150-155lbs until I became vegan. My measurements are something like 36…
I guess I can talk about my week review of my plant based diet eating. I told you my week in week two wasn’t the greatest week. I wasn’t exactly prepared. I ate a lot of meals from Veestro which were high in fat but it sticks to the plan. When I went away to my sisters for the holiday it actually was harder than I expected. Since we ate out two different nights, It was tough to be vegan….
Starting Saturday I will be following a plant based diet. Why Saturday? One of my birthday gifts from my sister and brother-in-law was a gift certificate to Terra Kitchen. They are a home delivery food company that sends the ingredients and you put the meal together. The difference is they cut the ingredients for you which for me is tremendous because I can’t do that anymore. My first delivery is Saturday. I also ordered from Veestro the 21 day kick…
Well good morning self sabotage, how you doing today? Yeah I know it’s all me. Making bad choices and then throwing my hands up. I’ve been writing this blog for three months you think that finally something with sink in, NAH. I have finally excepted that the chance of me losing the last 20 pounds is pretty slim. Would it be better for me with MS? Of course but I think there comes a point where your body just…
I am my own worst enemy. It really is a joke. I keep the scale away to prevent my own sabotage but all that really happens is the sabotage is put off. I knew I was down weight so I stepped upon the evil scale. Again I wasn’t technically down weight just back to my normal weight I usually am. Still not taking off an ounce of the 20lb I still want to loose BUT did take off the few…
