Well I’d love this to be a loving post but it’s not…I met a guy on Plenty of fish. If you haven’t read my last post on this website I’ll quickly fill you in. This website concerns me. Anyone can be on it because it’s free. There really is NO tracking so plenty of fish has no real knowledge of who the people making a profile are they don’t need a credit card. They could be married they could be a catfish. If you’ve never seen the movie or the show, a catfish is a person who persona on the computer or text or email is completely fabricated. The person may not even be the gender you think they are or the age you think they are. Sometimes the lie goes on for years. Why people do this I could never begin to understand but there is a whole show on MTV on it. I don’t know if I was actually catfish or just floundered. I talked to this guy everyday for a week day and night. Thursday night he tells me I get out of work at 1pm. I realized this was a subtle way of asking for plans. I even asked is this a summer thing for Friday or a special day. He told me always on Friday he’s off at 1. Cool. He says we can have dinner Friday, lunch Saturday and brunch Sunday. I’m like let’s work on one first so We make plans for Friday at 5 picked a restaurant and all. I already had the MS discussion but I wanted to bring it up once more. He was really sweet he stated “of course I’m ok with the walker silly goose why wouldn’t I be”. Friday came and my phone was silent nothing. He’s always said hello from work…my alarms were going off. 1pm came and went. I usually heard from him if not when he left work when he got home…hmmmmm. 4:30 I got a text I’m still working I’m beat I’ll be here until 6. Now thank god I wasn’t born dumb and by 2 I saw the writing on the wall and knew I was being blown off. We exchanged maybe 2 more texts and radio silence since.
So why am I telling this story? First because this is part of my life and that’s what my blog is about they daily life with MS. Second because upsetting or not it’s the truth and I won’t lie. Third because it happens to a lot of people it’s just how it goes and I want someone who maybe is dating to know your not alone. Finally and most importantly is the lesson to be learned. I could sit here and say, why did he not like me, what was wrong with me, what did I do? You know where the error is in all those questions this person didn’t even know you. Your EGO the mean fu$@ is asking those questions but your true self your inner voice knows the truth. This person didn’t reject you, me, her, him, they didn’t know us. The reason it was done is unknown but in reality it has to do with that persons feelings and lacks. We should be wishing or praying which ever you choose for them to be healed and be happy because something is not secure with them NOT us. I’m happy I’m good. No one has the power to take my happiness away unless I let them and to give it away to someone who didn’t even know me is really silly. So this girl just brushes it off with a smile and forgiveness. I hope he finds his happiness.
Xoxo