Oh, it’s just me, myself and I Solo ride until I die ‘Cause I got me for life Oh I don’t need a hand to hold Even when the night is cold I got that fire in my soul I woke up singing this song this morning. It’s easy to feel that way with a chronic illness. Especially if you’re single. It’s not that I don’t have a great family, I do. It’s not that I don’t have great friends,…
I’ve been a little sad lately. I’d love to answer I know why but I don’t even know. I just know I feel a little off, a little down, and just not my normal self. I can’t wrap myself up in my spiritual studies well. I haven’t been meditating. My morning affirmations have been difficult. I knew I needed a blog today about things I’m grateful for instead of things that are absent. My daughter’s birthday is on Sunday, she’s…
In having MRIs for 20 years, you get used to hearing the sounds. To me, they are extremely meditative. I end up making words to the beats of the sounds and go into the deepest meditations I’ve ever had. I’ve had several of my biggest epiphanies in MRIs. Each section they do, has this specific to droning sound. I find the more I concentrated on words to the sounds the more relaxed I become. I know this probably sounds weird….
I’ve written in my blog, some time over the past week, that my knees are so sore from crawling around when I’m on the floor and I have to find a place to help me stand up. Yesterday was just a bad MS day. I was frustrated, I was having difficulty walking and it just seemed I ended up with my knees down on the ground, not in falls, but I had to keep crawling around to help myself stand…
This was sent to me by my sister over two years ago when I started on my path of self-discovery and spiritual understanding. At first I didn’t quite understand the meaning until I started to understand myself, my actions and more importantly my thoughts. As I myself heal this poem became clearer and clearer to me. It’s one of those poems that are saved in my favorites in my phone and on my computer because every now and then I…
The Secret was a documentary film made in 2006. The movie answers how to get the things you desire most in your life. What is the Secret? Law of attraction. What you think in your mind you attract in your life. Sounds simple, doesn’t it? Thoughts become things both good and bad. Imagine yourself like a magnet, except it’s with your thoughts. You walk around and your thoughts are magnetically pulling things to you, like attracts like. If you walk…
Isn’t that what it’s all about? Self-love is all about accepting who you are. Accepting your flaws and accepting your good. Being happy in your own skin. Loving who you are. My dad loves to say look in the mirror, because that self-love. That person looking back at you for all the good and bad is you. No one else should ever dictate how you feel. Only you have that right. Every day is a choice that you make about…
My mother sent me a text yesterday to write down the questions I have for the neurologist. It’s been 20 years, what questions do I still have for the neurologist? I know the research, I know what’s out there and I know what I’m on. Unfortunately, there is nothing for secondary progressive and therefore there is nothing that will stop the MS progression at this point. I’m very positive, but I’m also a realist. I’m not gonna run around with…
It just dawned on me, that February 14 was my 20 year anniversary with MS. It was the weekend of February 14 that I was moving it to my house with my ex-husband. My left leg started to feel numb. The numbness started traveling up my leg through my muscles. I wasn’t just numb, my muscles were becoming week and atrophied. It was The following Friday I went to a family doctor who sent me immediately to this neurologist. To…
My ex-boyfriend has always read my blog. I confronted him about it maybe five months ago, I question why he read my blog. I wondered was it his narcissistic mind that made him read it my blog or was it that he actually gave a shit. His reply was what do you think? I always knew it was him because he go on in a specific way after he got blocked from Google+, Twitter, LinkedIn etc. I have a post…
