Happy Friday. I’m sitting here deciding what I want to write about because I know I have things I want to say, I just don’t know if I want to say it in my blog. My blog,that I’ve written the most embarrassing moments, I suddenly don’t want to put my feelings on display. Unfortunately, my blog has been my place I work my shit out for years now. I don’t think I can truly move forward until I figure it…
I had physical therapy again yesterday which once again ended up disappointing. I walked less than I ever walked in these sessions of PT. I woke up feeling good. I did my normal morning routine. I felt good and then I started getting tired. Therapy was at 12 and by that time I was already feeling fatigued. I was determined to walk but my body wasn’t matching my will. It was pathetic and frustrating from the first step. Why??? This…
I forgot to take my nighttime pills before bed the other night. I should have realized when I was still awake after 11 o’clock. I was tired but unable to sleep. My leg was twitching, my neck was having little spasms and I don’t want to discuss what my stomach was doing. I can say it was the attention on my stomach that made me fall to realize why I was twitching. I’ve had a bunch of nights I forgot…
Before I start my blog I want to wish my dear friend Hindi a Happy 50th Birthday. I love you. Have the greatest day. I’m melting. I am fully inside with the AC cranking but I feel the heat inside my bones. I was trying to transfer to my comfy chair this morning and it took me 10 minutes. I didn’t fall but my legs were like jelly. I kept having to repositioning myself to get the right stance to…
I had a very disappointing physical therapy session yesterday. I walked about a hallway and a half. The second full hallway still being my goal but once again escaping my grasp. I got tired and tried to sit for a second or two before I started my trek home. That was probably the beginning of the bad decisions. The upright walker isn’t easy to turn around with but even harder when you are trying to turn around to sit. There…
Good morning. Happy Monday. I had a nice weekend myself, lots of family. I started with my stepmom coming in from Florida. She came Friday afternoon with my younger sister. It was a really nice visit. I missed her hugs. I haven’t seen her in probably 2 years because of Covid. My little sister I see every few weeks, which makes me happy. It is hard to believe a year ago she was living in San Francisco. She hasn’t been…
I wrote a whole blog on Wednesday but my site had issues and it never posted. To make it worse it didn’t even save anywhere. I spent 45 minutes writing and my words disappeared into a cyber black whole. It was very frustrating and I certainly didn’t want to rewrite another post. To be honest I don’t usually have a plan when I start writing. I might have an idea but normally I let the words take the direction. I…
June and July down, August to go. I see the end is coming. I might survive another summer. I certainly have been in hibernation thus far, going out only when it is absolutely necessary. Yet even in my isolated state I still managed to get sick. I’m the last 14 days I’ve been to a doctor, seen my sisters, played games and mahjong with my friends in the building Far from a high interactive social calendar. Yet I woke up…
I made it through this week. It was difficult at times but I stand by my decision to not bring in a substitute aide. I did have my regular aide in for the day yesterday because I had a doctor appointment. She was so helpful that she made herself available to be here during her vacation. I didn’t even ask her, she offered immediately when she realized I had an appointment. I went to the gastroenterologist. Always dealing with the…
I had a lousy physical therapy session yesterday. Actually pathetic was more like it. Lousy multiple sclerosis day and I have no idea why. My physical therapist says he wished he had a manic pill to cure MS. I would settle for a pill that gave me the day off or even an hour off. I miss being able to dance. I’m watching this tv show about dancing and I could never move the way they do. However what I…
