I had a good weekend. I got my 6 hour online drivers insurance reduction course completed on Saturday. Had a really nice birthday brunch with my friend yesterday. Even consumed too many Bloody Mary and was slightly drunk. I managed to not only have zero falls this weekend, I also had zero bladder accidents. I stayed up past 9pm Friday and Saturday night and still got up my normal times in the morning. I think it is safe to say I have officially gone back to my normal life. Well as normal as it can be. Today is my last lesson in mahjong and then I can find a place to play with my friends who took the class with me. I am also going swimming after. It will be the first time I’ve been in since last week.
Life is back to normal and I am happy for that. I was certainly in a dark place for too long. I can’t say that the increase in the antidepressant is making any difference or not. I don’t feel happier or sadder, I don’t feel any different. I think that’s a good thing though. If I felt a huge shift I’d be concerned I was drugged to feel that way. I just feel like me again. I did get deeper into my spiritual practice again and I think that has also helped a lot. It has helped me feel more at peace. I had to be at peace with where I am with my multiple sclerosis again. A stage I thought I was ok with but in reality I really wasn’t. I’m finally getting better with it now. I had to go through that dark patch to come through the light. It doesn’t make the MS better but hopefully helps me accept this stage better. That’s what I’ve learned through this experience.