I think I could just write the title and stop there. It was a big deal for me. I worked very hard to get into the size 8 that I was. More importantly I stayed in that size for eight years. I still have no answers to what’s going on and why my weight keeps coming on the way it is but it is but I can’t stop it. I’m doing all the right things and it’s just not coming off. The doctor say it’s the decrease mobility with MS, but I’m back to working out five days a week so can’t say I agree with them. However since there’s no other reason things, what else could I say. The other day I put on my pants and I could still button them, I could still wear them and I could still breathe, they are just tight in my thighs and it was uncomfortable.

I’m not even up much weight, I’m up between 6-8 pounds but that’s enough to make a difference. I think part of the main difference, is the muscle. My workouts don’t really include my weights right now and I think that might be part of the difference. Not that I ever worked out my legs because I never could, but I always work out my upper body. I do need to add that in somehow to my routine of working out, I just haven’t figured it out yet.

So I purchased my new jeans in one size higher, back to double digits, and it is what it is. I’m not throwing out my old jeans, I’m still determined to get back in them. I just can’t be uncomfortable because of a number on a pair of jeans. My biggest lesson that I’m trying to learn is to love myself regardless of the number on the scale. My dogs, my family and my friends love me, no one cares what number it says on the scale. The only one that cares is me. The truth is it’s my mental thing that I need to get over. I’m working on it and buying the pants in the new size was such a huge step for me as silly as it sounds I’m proud of myself.