I took a nap yesterday. First time I did that in ages. I didn’t sleep well the night before. I knew I needed more sleep. I kept my pajamas on and stayed under my blanket. I spoke to everyone I wanted to talk. I text my daughter and mom to let them know that I was going to sleep. I even put my phone on do not disturb. Thankfully, the house phone didn’t ring through out the afternoon. I appreciate that my cars warranty wasn’t up again, for the twenty-ith time. The only problem with my “naps” are they are long. I slept for almost 4 hours. That is why I don’t nap during the day. I easily will sleep 2 hours. I am usually asleep by 9:30 every night. Sleeping during the day just takes away the whole day for me. That’s why I don’t nap. I was still asleep by 9:30-10 yesterday despite the long nap. I
can sleep all day. I take Provigil, purposely, so I don’t sleep all day. Otherwise, MS fatigue would have taken over my life. I would have had no life. I use to take 2-200mg pills a day. When I was still working, there was days I took 3 so I could get the workday. That was horrible. I use to be so tired some days I could easily sleep even when I took Provigil. Provigil, a drug used for narcolepsy. Fatigue is no joke. Yesterday afternoon I actually took the pill out because I wanted to sleep. I wasn’t sleeping from MS fatigue. I was sleeping because I was tired. However, doesn’t change the fact I’m a sleeper. I knew I’d sleep for a long time. I always sleep for a long time when I nap. I can sleep the whole day away.
I would use my sick days to sleep. I’d take my daughter to school and go to bed for the rest of the day. I’d be sleeping from 10-4:30, when I had to pick her up from after school. That was usually from complete MS exhaustion. I needed those days to shut down and recharge. My mom always asked, “do you feel better?” I never did. It wasn’t about feeling better. It was about trying to recharge to get through another few weeks. Sometimes I wonder how I managed working for so long. Then I realized how many drugs I was on to get me through the day.
I slept like normal last night. My nap didn’t have any effect on my sleeping that evening. I knew it wouldn’t. I have been running hot lately. I actually have literally had sweat dripping down my neck for no reason at all. Maybe it’s a hot flash. I guess it’s possible. I just don’t feel like I get warm all over. Yet, what in my MS body is normal? It doesn’t normally effect my actual sleep. Thankfully, I’ve been sleeping good for a while. My multiple sclerosis symptoms have been really quiet at night too. For that I am so happy.