I have to be honest, I’m not sure I still want to blog anymore. I have had this feeling once before over a year ago. https://multipleexperiences.org/2020/01/18/do-i-continue-to-blog/. At that time I realized I still loved writing about my life daily. I have poured my heart out in so many of these posts. I’ve shared every bad day and every embarrassing MS moment I deal with daily on the pages of multiple experiences. My stories are getting repetitive. I’m running out of things to say. I look at my MS with the same positive attitude that I have from the beginning, That’s not what’s changing.
What’s changing is the good days are still so hard, that they aren’t really “good days”. They are just days that are slightly easier than the ones that are bad. It’s hard to keep writing about the challenges I face as they keep getting harder and more consistent. I started writing this blog thinking I would help the world. I did help some people, which I am so grateful for, but the real person this helped was me.
This blog has taking me on a journey into understanding and accepting my MS on a new level. It’s brought me clarity into my life and in my own spirituality. This blog became an outlet for me to have a voice and to let me vent how I felt. I got to be truthful about my disease and how I live with it’s challenges. That has been so amazing for me. The comments from other people dealing with multiple sclerosis have comforted me on my darkest days and cheered me during my victories. There have been truly beautiful people I have met.
I am not gonna shut the blog down because I don’t know if I really want to but I think I might take a little hiatus. Maybe write one or two times a week as opposed to 5 days a week. So let’s see how it goes. I don’t think I can ever say goodbye so my blog, at least not as of today,￼￼ I just think there comes a point when you really do run out of things to say. I’ll check in next week with a weekly update. Love to all and stay healthy and safe. ￼