Good morning. I am not sure where my post is going to go today because I have no idea what I want to say. I have a headache again. I’ve been getting them more and more frequently. Luckily they have been going away with ibuprofen but I’m on medicine everyday for headache/migraines, why am I getting them? They were really bad when I was sick last week but I had one yesterday and now I have one today. I guess I really know these headaches are actually caused by my spasticity in my back. My muscles in my upper back feel like they’ve been twisted by a spaghetti fork and thus cause the pain into my head. That’s why the ibuprofen works.
Wow, I read back that paragraph, that was a mess. I can’t think well when I have a headache. I’m sad today. I realized once again I can’t foster any dogs especially while I have Marshmallow around. He had a fight with Zoey the other day over food and I couldn’t get over to them fast enough to break it up. Luckily Zoey only has a few cuts over her eye but I can’t protect her. How can I foster? I can’t even train her. I can’t walk her on a leash, I can’t walk period. I had to get training help from my dog walker. How can I foster? How can I help? I can’t even move enough to do anything. It is sad. It was my dream to have a house full of fosters but it’s unrealistic. Truthfully after my sweet boy Marshmallow passes over the rainbow bridge, I think I might have to stay with one dog from now on.
I’m so tired today of having MS. I used to think I had 5 years until I needed a wheelchair full time, that was a year ago. Then I bought my car with a 3 year lease thinking that won’t be an issue. Well my lease has a year and 8 months left and I don’t think I’m going to make it. I think at the rate I’m going the wheelchair is in my immediate future unfortunately. I don’t know if I’ll even last the 8 months. Then my daughter gets my car, I sell her car and get a car that can fit a wheelchair either in it or behind it. That’s my MS reality.
Okay enough, nonsensical blogging for today. If I made grammar errors forgive me I’m too tired to go back and check. Happy Monday.