It is four steps from my bed to my bathroom. I always had this goal to be able to make it to my bathroom unaided. To get up and safely walk to the bathroom. A few years ago I could, why couldn’t I do it again? I have a progressive disease, that’s why. I could probably stumble through the four steps and make it to the bathroom but the word safely wouldn’t be in that sentence. I have fallen even with my walker taking those four steps.
I don’t think I’m ever going to take those steps again. I’m okay with that. It is what it is. I remember being so embarrassed to use my walker out in public. Now I’m thrilled I could finally use my wheelchair. I’ve come far. I still get the looks from people. The pity looks I call them. I’m young and in a wheelchair but most people are very nice. I remember when I was discussing going into the wheelchair stage another MSer said to me you will be remembered by people. He was definitely right. People always remember me even when I don’t remember them. I’m noticed in stores, in my condo complex and around my neighborhood. Like I said people are generally nice but it’s also nice being remembered too.
Those four steps, I thought they were such a big deal. I use to be embarrassed needing help from my aided devices. Now I’m thankful for them. I fought them each step of the way but they made and continue to make living with MS just a little easier and safer to deal with. Accept and adapt.