I feel a little down since my neurologist appointment the other day. I haven’t shaken it off. I’m not down about having MS, I’m down about MS causing me to gain weight. Between the medicine, my age and lack of physical ability I can’t control my weight and I am very sad.

I spent my entire life battling my weight. I was always up and down on the scale since I was a teenager. I’ve read about and tried every diet out there. Then finally after my divorce I took off the weight. I started exercising and kept off 40 plus pounds for many years. That was until the last two years. It started with 8 now its 12lbs up.

I don’t get it. I loose and then all of a sudden I start to gain it all back again changing nothing. I don’t know why. I wrote about my intermittent fasting Intermittent fasting 5:2 and steadily losing weight and next thing I know I’m steadily gaining weight. I’m back to where I started plus a few pounds.

I know I’m doing mostly right. I eat healthy 85% of the time, I have my moments. I exercise to the best of my ability 5 days a week. I don’t eat much. I am doing my best and I know it’s out of my control yet it is just making me sad. I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin or clothes. I don’t feel like me. I worked so hard to take off the weight it is heart breaking having no control over it coming on. I am sticking eating to what I know and am most comfortable with, plant based eating regardless of the weight. I’m done trying to find a better way.